Happy Anniversary to LoveAleta
It’s always an interesting experience when things turn out a little different than planned. I’m a planner, mark the days, set the appointments, and call me your 2016-2017 faux leather spiral-bound best friend. There is never a day I don’t create to-do lists, whether they’re in my head, on a white board, recorded by Siri, or in my blank page note pad, (lines are always in the way)…
But, when the moments aren’t fully planned, they always come out even more bright, joyous, and beautiful, than I could have ever possibly imagined. When I leave the small surprising details to the Divine, to the magical world that we live in, the Universe always leaves me in awe; in full, mind-blowing, heart-beaming, Gratitude.
I don’t really know exactly when I “decided” that my life should and could be filled with meaning, that it would be most beneficial, to myself, my family, and the Universe, if I worked to share my love and life with everyone who finds LoveAleta Soulwear along their life’s journey. That my creativity be served as a healing light. All I wanted growing up was “World Peace.” I think back, sometimes, as I make wishes while blowing out candles… (P.S. ALL CANDLES HOLD WISHES. Light one just to make a wish once in a while. There is a spark of magic in every flame) …I had this reoccurring wish as a child, “I wish for this, I wish for that, and I wish for World Peace.” I have no idea where that came from, who knows, maybe a movie… maybe my Soul? But, it always stuck with me… and whether the important part is where something comes from, or whether it sticks with you, is truly a valid question for all of our idiosyncrasies.
In this case, I believe the important part is that it stuck with me. I truly, truly, wish for a world where Compassion is the mission, Love and Understanding is the main ingredient, and Peace is the outcome. Imagine how bright the sun would be? How good our hearts would feel? How peaceful our days will become.
Just last night, I received my Reiki II attunement. It was beyond amazing, more than majestic, and very Real. A quote that I received was this:
“Until one is committed
there is hesitancy………the chance to draw back,
Concerning all acts of initiative and creation
there is one elementary truth,
the ignorance of which kills countless ideas
and splendid plans:
That the moment one definitely commits oneself,
then Providence moves too.
All sorts of things occur to help one
that would never otherwise have occurred.
A whole stream of events issues from the decision
raising in one’s favour all manner
of unforeseen incidents and meetings
and material assistance
which no man could have dreamt
would have come his way.”
When you commit to something, that you know will make your life and this world a truly better place, the Universe, God, or anything that you believe in, will arrange for what you need and have it brought to you, in ways that bring excitement, “coincidence,” joy, and surprise.
Today marks a very important day for LoveAleta, as well as for my family and myself. February 20, 2016 marks as a 6-year anniversary of the physical loss of Aleta. I originally started this blog with less personal information, and more inspirational writing. But, then I realized that inspiration doesn’t come out of thin air, it isn’t just created with the simple intent to be inspired. It always starts with a story, a personal journey that is shared with those whose path has brought them here in this shared space. I remember when my mother was first diagnosed with cancer, that it was completely outrageous. This immortal, beautiful human was rushed to the hospital and into an emergency surgery, where half of her colon was removed, and where she was found in the final stage of colon cancer. I don’t know where I’d be today had none of this ever happened. I can’t even imagine how long she must have been sick and how much time she spent building a concrete façade. I really feel the most sadness when I wish that I could have known then what I know now, and that I could have helped soothe her anxieties and fear at age 17.
It’s no longer just the need for my own support, for the most comforting shoulder to lean on, or for that magical hug that somehow healed anything, but that I miss my best friend of a mom. I miss her goofy songs, I miss her laugh, I miss her soothing love, her calmness, her aura, her wise words that didn’t make any sense to me in that moment, the way she said “this too shall pass,” at the perfect time, her clever jokes…and her corny ones, the smell of her hair; mine must have smelt the same because I always stole her hair products…but hers I remember. Her energy I remember. The way she made everyone feel, I remember. The one piece that makes me sad to remember is her stress. Her stress I remember.
Peace and stress cannot coexist. At least unhealthy stress can’t compete with true Peace.
Peace is where the light shines when you’re busy planning the day away. Peace is where your book is waiting for you to open it. Peace is where your Yoga mat is laying. Peace is where the sunset sleeps. Peace is where the morning wakens. Peace is in our hearts, and is waiting to be called upon, just a little more often…
LoveAleta Soulwear has already been such a healing journey for myself. Where Good Intentions are worn as reminders to help create their vibrant existence in our daily lives. We are all so bright, we hold so much light in ourselves that the dimmer can only be held by the light itself, we are too bright to be oppressed by any other being. We are our own shadows. But, as Marianne Williamson has so wisely shared her knowledge:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest feat is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness,
that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves,
‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?’
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God. [or any other source you may believe in]
Your playing small doesn’t serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest
the glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.”
That may be one of the most important quotes I have ever heard in my life, and since the day it was written across my path, I have always held it close to my heart and work my best to live by it.
I hope that as LoveAleta continues, a community is built; one of trust, love, compassion and joy. The only way I have found to help fill this “unfillable void” is to share all of the love I can possibly create, with those who wish to pass it on.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read my post,
I am so grateful that we have crossed paths in one way or another.